Aloha Mommy To Be

Hoho, macam dah lama gila PnDas tak update kat sini. Busy mengalahkan PM. Ekcelli PnDas sekarang sedang preggie 7 bln, with due on Dec 2016. But PnDas foresee macam terberanak awal aje rasanya. Takpe la, mana mana je lah. Asalkan baby PnDas sihat walafiat.

Topik yang PnDas cuba utarakan pada kali ini ialah berkisarkan ikut sedap PnDas nak taip. Sebenarnya PnDas takda la idea bernas sangat untuk dibicarakan. Nak berkongsi pasal tips kehamilan pun macam rasa belum otai lagi. Iyalah kan, baru first baby. Apa la sangat petua petua yang PnDas boleh kongsikan. Cuma kat sini PnDas boleh menceritakan alahan yang PnDas alami. PnDas kena kegatalan. Dari satu perut hingga ke dada. Nampak buruk jugalah dah macam corak abstrak pelukis Wassily Kandinsky. PnDas highlight kat Mr Laboo pasal kekurangan PnDas ni.Sedih la juga , sape tak sedih kan perut dah macam peta dunia? Tapi dengan best nya Mr Laboo memberi kata-kata perangsang.

“It’s ok, sayang. You still look pretty no matter how. I love everything about you”. 

Fuh, cair juga la dengan ayat-ayat camtu.

By da way, baby yang PnDas kandung ni adalah baby girl. PnDas ni jenis tak menyabar nak tau jantina. Sebab bila dah tau, senang la bagi PnDas nak specifikasikan persediaan new born tu nanti. Untuk itu, PnDas signed up 3D 4D Scan  Malaysia under Dr Jezzlyn. Website nye kat sini:

http://3d-4d-scan-malaysia.com/3d-4d-scan-malaysia-services-locations/

                PnDas ambil pakej RM120 untuk 3D/ 4D Scan. Banyak good review yang PnDas baca mengenai Dr Jezzlyn and dia pun sweet funny orangnya. Dapat jugalah tengok baby PnDas dalam ultrasound tu. Another thing kalau booking dengan Dr Jezzlyn online melalui laman web tadi, harganya jauh berbeza berbanding walk in which is RM190 ( Umra Medical Centre Seksyen 13). Fuh, mahal tol. Memandangkan PnDas tinggal kat Shah Alam dan PnDas ingin mendapatkan khidmat Dr Jezzlyn, beliau cuma bertugas pada hari Ahad sahaja kerana hari lain beliau kat area lain. Jadi sila lah baca dulu term and condition before agree to set an appointment.

Persiapan menyambut kelahiran baby.

                Honestly, PnDas belum prepare bersungguh-sungguh lagi barang – barang baby. Banyak buat survey dulu. Antara laman web yang PnDas tengah usya ialah:

http://www.citybaby.com.my/

http://www.beyondmama.com/

http://www.onebabyworld.com/

https://www.babyland.my/

https://www.gugubird.com/

http://buyonline.afiat.com.my/

http://www.motherhood.com.my/

http://www.mybbstore.com/

http://www.littlewhiz.com/

http://www.twinsbaby.net/

                Semua yang PnDas tengah survey ni ada harganya agak berbaloi dan ada harga macam mahal juga. Depends on budget la. Ada a few of kawan kawan PnDas yang bakal mendapat baby juga, jadi apa yang mereka post di FB barang barang yang patut dibeli, PnDas jadikan sebagai reference. ^_^

                Rasa macam agak skema juga gaya penulisan PnDas lately ni. Kalau first first dulu masa aktif mengarang blog, ayat agak la sempoi dan penuh gila-gila.  Ke mana perginya bisa PnDas ye? Hahahaha

Birthday date with Mr Hubby

Bila birthday, every year PnDas memang akan apply cuti sebagai acara Personal Public Holiday PnDas. Mengikut persepsi PnDas, birthday ialah hari untuk menyantaikan diri tanpa perlu membebankan fikiran kita untuk bekerja. Plus, PnDas taknak mengharapkan budak2 ofis @ pressure kan diri mereka membuat collection nak buat acah-acah surprise birthday party. Lepas tu bila masuk time birthday orang plak, kena bagi donation. Dah macam paksarela. So bila camni PnDas rasa tak perlu rasa terbeban nak bagi donation. PnDas dah refuse awal-awal don’t want to involve with this all kind office birthday party. Lagipun pengalaman lepas-lepas tatkala kawan-kawan ofis buat birthday party, banyak juga meninggalkan memory yang tak berapa best. Contoh di sini, bila time birthday orang, kita sungguh-sungguh buat sampai beli kek yang agak best untuk diraikan. Bila time kita plak kek nya pula ala kadar aje. Contoh the 1st person dorang sediakan kek from Secret Recipe. Mahal kan? The 2nd fellow another time la dia punya birthday beli kek from Giant sahaja. Alasan bajet tak banyak so keknya tak special.  Dah timbul rasa tak puas hati di situ. So, buat apa kan? Baik celebrate dengan insan-insan istimewa sahaja. Itu personal opinion PnDas aje la. Kalau ada yang rasa nak meraikan dengan kawan-kawan ofis lagi bermakna, by all means dipersilakan. Nasib kita tak sama. Jenis kawan-kawan juga tak sama. Itu aje komen PnDas. Huhuhuhu, chill..

                Ini kisah hari yang sama sesi petang plak. Lepas urusan register buku pink setel, kena faham juga lah kan bahawasanya ( Hubby suka bebenor gunapakai ungkapan ini) hari lahir adalah bersamaan  dengan tarikh luput lesen memandu tahunan. So, PnDas malas nak ke JPJ . Nak full reload sabar petang petang hari memang payah sikit la. Altenative solution buat renew kat pejabat bos besar. Puas hati sikit kaunter banyak and urusan laju macam air. Tak sampai setengah jam setel bab renew lesen. PnDas baru dapat tahu yang Hubby pun tak renew lagi lesennya since last year. All this while he’s been driving with expired due license. Seriously dear????! Bila dia nk renew, katanya IC dia ade problem chip. Bengang le sekejap sebab kena pegi ke Jabatan Pendaftran untuk replace IC barulah boleh renew Licence tu. Kesudahannya tak pergi.

                Jadi Hubby masih lagi memendingkan (new term, jangan guna di public sebab salah vocab) urusan renewing beliau. Lantok ler sayang uihh. Kalau kena saman bukan PnDas yang bayor.  Lepas tu sibuk la bertanya,

Him: Sayang nak celebrate bday kat mana?

Me: I lapar, kita makan dulu ye?

Him: Boleh, nak makan ape yunk?

Me: I teringin makan nasi goreng la lately ni.

Him: Masakan goreng-goreng, tengahari belum ade yunk.

Me: Oh… Camtu nasi ayam kat seksyen 6. Air honeydew tu sedap. Dah lama tak minum. Ayam nak lebih ye.

Him: Okay.

Then both of us lunch kat situ dulu before heading to Subang Parade.

Kutip kat Google Image.

SABAR KENA BAWA LEBIH Episode 1

Semalam birthday PnDas (21^st Apr 2016), tapi dah ade schedule pergi Klinik Kesihatan Seksyen 7. Sebab nak buat medical checkup. Kena buka buku kaler pink. Memula sibuk la PnDas bertanyakan pakcik Google, mende apa la yang nak dibawa untuk buka buku kaler pink tu. Takdela kebatakan terserlah semasa di sana. Sampai skodeng blog orang. Ye la, dah pakcik Google suka sangat mengorek rahsia kat blog orang, dengan PnDas sekali terjebak dengan acara macam tu. Hahaha. Tapi bila sudah pening membaca. Terus PnDas fedup. Zaman sekarang ni orang suka sangat tanya Pcik Google. Semua pakcik Google sampai kadang-kadang terlupa, pergi terus direct tanya kan senang. So, last bantuan pcik Google PnDas minta tanya no telefon Klinik Kesihatan Seksyen 7. Mujurla ada, terus PnDas dial dan bertanya. Kan senang senang je jawapannya…

1)    Bawa IC sendiri ( bawa ke sana tapi tak guna pun)

2)   Bawa salinan IC suami  ( tade plak dorang minta)

3)   Untk anak pertama bawa surat nikah ( pun tak minta )

4)  2D Scan ( yang ni je dorang amik and stapler kat buku pink tu)

Pengalaman setiap orang bila buka buku pink ni beza-beza. So, bila PnDas cakap dorang tak minta IC PnDas and suami or surat nikah, jangan lah semua pikir takyah bawa. Bawa tau, sebab situasi kadang-kadang tak sama. So, daripada buat keje 2X, bawa aje la.

Lepas tu, masa datang semalam sebelum 7.30am PnDas dah terpacak kat situ. Rupa-rupanya dah ramai orang queue. Memang lah Klinik start pukul 8.00am tapi kaunter dah start buka 7.30am. Macam mana PnDas tahu? Tanya lah direct, jangan banyak refer pakcik Google. Dia bukan nurse or doctor kat Klinik Kesihatan tu. So, PnDas dapat no yang agak awal juga la. Memandangkan PnDas takde temujanji, and ini experience pertama plak tu, skema le nunggu tak tanya kat kaunter sampai 2 jam melanguk. Pukul 9.30am nombor PnDas tak sebut sebut lagi. Pastu, terus PnDas pegi kaunter. Tanya elok-elok dengan nurse tu.

Me: Nurse, tumpang tanya. Saya dah datang kat sini since pukul 7.30am lagi. Sekarang dah 9.30am, nombor saya tak dipanggil. Boleh saya tau kenapa? ( Huh skema tanya)

Nurse pandang.

Nurse: Takde temujanji kan? Kalau takde temujanji memang lambat sikit sebab kita utamakan yang ada temujanji. Kena tunggu sampai 2,3 jam dulu.

Me: Iye saya faham. Tapi saya dah datang daripada 7.30am sebaik kaunter dah dibuka. Kira dah tunggu 2 jam juga la. Orang yang datang kemudian dah masuk dah. Nombor saya masih belum dipanggil. Macam mana saya nak ada temujanji kalau ini first time nak buat buku?

Nurse: Puan letak nombor tu kat mana?

Me: Dalam bakul “ Tanpa Temujanji”.

Then barulah nurse tu ambil nombor PnDas. Sebenarnya moral kat sini, jangan malu nak bertanya. Bertanya aja lah kalau itu boleh mempercepatkan urusan kita. Bila bertanya tu kita tanyala elok-elok. Bukan dengan nak marah-marah. Memang orang ramai, sebab service free. Kita pun sendiri amik khidmat Klinik Kesihatan sebab free. So? Nak kata apa? Sabar tu bawa lebih. Kalau boleh bawak spare sabar tu banyak-banyak. Kadang-kadang nurse pun boleh terlepas pandang sebab orang ramai tak putus putus. Jadi bila kita dah spoilt mood nurse pagi-pagi dengan buat dia stress, imagine orang yang belakang kita dapat tempias moody. Tak baik kan?? Akan datang ntah ntah kita pula yang dapat tempias moody sebab orang depan kita dah spoilt mood dia. So benda akan berpusing balik kena kat kita.

Berbalik kepada hal tadi, kemudian nombor  PnDas dipanggil untuk ditimbang berat badan. Then, beratur lagi ambil darah. Tips lagi satu untuk Allah mudahkan laluan kita ialah dengan berbelas kasihan pada orang yang lebih berat tanggungan daripada kita. Contoh, kerusi disediakan untuk ibu mengandung. 1^st PnDas dapatlah duduk, penat juga berdiri lama-lama dengan mual loya. Later on ada preggie lady perut nya dah agak memboyot terpaksa berdiri. Macam PnDas cepat kesian. So, PnDas offerkan seat PnDas untuk dia. Mula-mula dia taknak. Segan agaknya tapi PnDas insist. So, dia duduk. Tak lama lepas tu, nombor PnDas kena panggil dah. Padahal depan PnDas ada lagi orang tengah tunggu.

Alhamdulillah.

                Lepas ambil darah, kena submit sample tu ke makmal, dia bagi cup untuk urin. Memang PnDas dah tak tahan nak buang air. Ngam-ngam time ibarat mengantuk disorong bantal. Lepas setel letak sample urin & darah dekat makmal, kena tunggu lagi. Betulkan? Sabar kena bawa lebih. Tak lama tunggu, nombor PnDas kena panggil lagi. Masuk dalam jumpa nurse. Alhamdulillah dapat nurse yang agak friendly siap wish birthday lagi kat PnDas. Dia update kat buku pink tu and explain sikit sebanyak. Buat breast checkup and macam-macam lagi la. By 11.00am urusan PnDas kat Klinik Kesihatan pun selesai.

                But last last sekali, sabar PnDas dah kehabisan reload apabila Mr Laboo datang lambat ambil PnDas.  Hahahah kesian beliau kena menerima amarah PnDas. Sape suruh lambat?? Love him more… ^_^

Suki suki je

Sekarang dah masuk bulan April. Apakah update yang PnDas boleh announcekan di sini. Oh ye, bulan ini ialah bulan hari jadi PnDas.. Wooohoo. Sempena meraikan hari kejadian PnDas, since last week PnDas dah apply coti dengan En Boss. Boss Mr AT, tanpa banyak soal terus mengapprovekan. Setel problem.

Last week project buat karipap pusing PnDas membuahkan hasil yang agak marveles, gebus, dan crispy. Dengan penuh rasa konfidennye PnDas cakap, boleh dijual. Hahahah perasantan lagi. Cuma satu je PnDas failed. Cara nak ketip or kelim tepi karipap tu. Tak tahu la kenapa, jari jemari PnDas ni macam kurang halus keseniannya di situ. Terpaksa meminta bantuan mertua PnDas mengetip tepi karipap tu. Hahahadooi, ini macam punya orang pun ada ka??? Filling & pastry karipap diakui successful kejadiannya.

Petang memandangkan orang tua tiada dirumah, terpaksalah PnDas & suami menggalas tanggungjawab menjadi penjaga sementara kepada adik-adik Hubby PnDas. Dalam kata lain, chef in da house la. Petang ni dah inform Hubby menyediakan bahan-bahan untuk dinner malam. Huh, biar betik? Awal gila. Takpa la, Hubby PnDas ni ada habit pahat sikit. Sekali ketuk baru jalan. Huhuhuhu

Malam semalam kedua –dua mertua PnDas pegi ke Meilbourne sampai weekend ni baru la balik. So, the whole family except adik ipar perempuan je yang pergi. CikGebus ( adik ipar PnDas ni) stay rumah nenek di KL. Tak dapatlah nak menghantar sekali.

Ke dapur la kite…

PnDas sekarang tak tahu nak update apa. Bermacam-macam perkara bermain di dalam kepala namun tak tahu nak luahkan macam mana. Bukan benda negative pun. Semenjak bermenjak ni PnDas sangat gigih mentelaah resepi yang PnDas rasa nak cuba. Belum setel projek A, PnDas terus nak jump projek B. Haish, kadang-kadang mende kecik macam ni pun boleh jadi stress. Apa la PnDas ni. Relax la. Nak masak pun berstress bagai.

So, Apa kata PnDas senaraikan dulu goal masakan yang bermain di fikiran. Senang lah sikit bila dah ready, boleh pick mana nak buat dulu.

PnDas nak cuba buat croissant. 2,3 hari ni nampak macam nak makan croissant. Bila tengok cara-cara, pertengahan jugak cara pembuatannya la. Senang sangat pun tak, susah sangat pun tak. Tapi kalau tak careful, memang tak jadi.

Pastu rasa nak buat Cheese Ring Pastry. Ala, macam croissant tapi buat bentuk star. Dalam dia letak cheese banyak-banyak, ade filling. Yang itu pun nampak senang nak buat, tapi kalau tak jaga-jaga, tak jadi juaga.

Kemudian PnDas plan nak buat Mexican Bun. Dari bertahun-tahun lepas nak buat tapi tak jadi-jadi. Alasannya PnDas rasa kebolehan buat roti PnDas macam ke laut. Selalu tak berapa nak jadi. Actually pada orang lain yang merasa bun dorang cakap best. Cuma personal thought PnDas rasa tak best. Tak seperti yang PnDas nak. But it’s ok, yang ini PnDas akan cuba realisasikan.

PnDas berkenan nak buat Paella. Paella ni makanan Spanish, sejenis risotto yang bercampur dengan macam-macam seafood. Tapi kalau ikut resepi sebenar, ade campuran wine. That part memang kena alter ikut tekak Muslim la. Masih lagi mentelaah ingredients nya. Tapi kan PnDas tak berapa gemar sangat nasi yang bercampur dengan susu atau cream. Huhuhu Takpe, yang ini kita ketepikan dulu.

Kek Pandan Cheese leleh pun PnDas rasa nak buat. Kawan masa diploma  PnDas buat Kek Pandan Cheese Leleh sedap betul. Siap jual lagi. Tapi PnDas tak berapa minat nak meniaga ni walaupun ada yang cakap makanan yang PnDas buat boleh dijual. Pelik kan perangai. PnDas suka masak atas dasar minat & suka-suka. Bila dah masuk fasa berniaga ni, PnDas rasa macam tertekan sebab nak kena ambil tempahan, siapkan and hantarkan. Sedangkan PnDas ada mood juga nak masak or baking. Mertua PnDas pun menggalakkan PnDas buat berniaga. Hahaha, maybe akan datang siapa tahu kot-kot PnDas dah mula jatuh cinta.

Food yang pernah PnDas hasilkan dan mendapat komen bagus sama ada daripada kawan-kawan or ahli keluarga. Antaranya ialah:

1)       Sushii / Kimbab

2)     Kimchii – masa tu kegilaan dengan KPOP wave, makanan dorang pun PnDas nak cuba

3)      Onigiri

4)     Vietnamese Spring Roll – Mertua PnDas sangat gemarkan makanan ni.

5)     Steamboat & Grill – Family PnDas akan request bila ada special occasion

6)     Chocolate Brownies

7)      Banana Chocolate – Yg ni buah sekali je, sebab tak larat nak beli bahan2. Mahal sgt.

8)      Chocolate Indulgence – Sama gak, kejadiannya awesome tapi nak membuatnya penat

9)     Nasi Arab – Kos melampau juga. PnDas akan beli beras yang memang mahal semata2 nak buat

10)  Nasi Beriyani – Ni pun sama gak.

11)    Pizza

12)   Kek Chocolate Moist

13)   Grilled Fish – Guna trout, dory, salmon.

14)   Bubur nasi or kekacang

15)   Asam pedas

16)   Portugese Egg Tart

17)   Chinese Dumpling / Korean Mandoo

18)   Chicken Masala / Varuval

19)  Spagetti – Bolognese, Alfredo, Carbonara. Many creations  yang pelik2.

20) Etc

Fuh banyak gak la sampai tak tertaip.  

                Semoga kemalasan PnDas tidak mengatasi kerajinan. Huhuhuuhu..

Akhirnya Aku Kahwin…… Woohoo

Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Ilahi bahawasanya CikDas opps PnDas sudah selamat bergelar sebagai isteri kepada MrLaboo pada tanggal 6^th February 2016. Majlis perkahwinan kami Alhamdulillah berjalan dengan lancar. Kedua-dua orang tua kami amatlah gembira dan PnDas mengharapkan agar rumahtangga yang kami bina ini inshaaAllah dapat berkekalan hingga ke jannah. Aamiin.

Bercerita kepada topic ini,, buat masa sekarang PnDas dan suami tinggal bersama mertua di Shah Alam. Dekat tak dekat juga la dengan tempat kerja PnDas sekarang. Mujurlah masa belum kahwin dulu PnDas dah biasakan diri pergi kerja awal. Jadi bila lepas kahwin pun masih berterusan lah habit itu. Mertua PnDas kedua-duanya masih bekerja.

Sekarang ini PnDas masih lagi dalam situasi menyesuaikan diri dengan situasi, peranan, pengawalan emosi, etc. Kalau dulu PnDas boleh buat sesuatu sewenang-wenangnya tetapi sekarang bila sudah bersuami, haruslah bermuafakat dengan suami. Agak kekok tetapi inshaaAllah akan diusahakan perbaiki.

Bila dah kahwin ni mesti orang sibuk nak tanya pasal anak. PnDas dan suami tak merancang pun. Kalau ada rezeki Allah nak bagi maka PnDas terima. ^^ 

Kat bawah ni ade PnDas letakkan beberapa keping photo sebagai tatapan di hari bahgia PnDas

Stay Still..

Pagi ini fikiran CikDas bak gelas jernih berwap dengan gas. Nampak clear tetapi berwap. CikDas masih lagi dalam fikiran berkecamuk. Tiba-tiba ditegur oleh seorang pelawat yang datang ke office ini.

“Cik, boleh pinjam stapler?” tanya nya

“Kejap ye, stapler tu ape?” OMG, CikDas blackout seketika. Kemudian setelah mendapat visual di dalam benak barulah CikDas tercapai-capai mencari stapler. “Maaf Encik. Pagi-pagi ini sel otak saya belum bersambung dengan betul. Kejap saya pasang suis ye”.

Dan partner CikDas, Vee memerhatikan dengan wajah penuh hairan. TIdak mempedulikan dia, CikDas menyambung menaip. Biarkan jari jemari ini menaip sesuka hati.

CikDas risaukan tunang CikDas, Mr. Laboo. Dia nampak tertekan dan sedih. CikDas harap dapat membantu dia. Tapi tangan dan kaki CikDas pun  dah terikat dengan simpulan mati. Apa yang termampu CikDas dah tolong, tetapi segala-segalany terhad.  Kekangan dengan pelbagai. Semalam dia sepatutnya dapat payment drp  clientnya. Dengan payment itulah diharap dapat digunakan untuk mengandalkan kos majlis kami. Dugaan sungguh. Tapi takpe la, ada la rezeki itu nanti. CikDas tak putus-putus doa, sambil berharap dibentangkan rezeki untuk dia. Dipermudahkan segala urusannya. Semalam dia pegang tangan CikDas. Sangat erat genggaman itu. Katanya,

“I’m worry if the client unable to pay tonight. Holding ur hand is just like charging my body’s battery”

“Sshhh.. Dun worry, dear. Inshaa Allah.” Hanya itu yang mampu CikDas katakan.

Ganbatte kudesai, Mr. Laboo. I know it’s tough. But everything will be fine. We’ll find a way okay. Just stay strong. Hang on there..

Notification for incoming WhatsApp message…

“Tak Berjaya.. “

To be continued………………..

Glum Heart

CikDas kekeringan idea untuk mengupdate di blog ni. Dah bersawang agaknya. Lagi 2 minggu sebelum wedding CikDas. CikDas tak tahu nak rasa gemuruh jiwa semangat membara ke apa. Banyak yang bermain di fikiran CikDas ibarat system yang sedang nak crash disebabkan banyak application sedang running. Oleh yang demikian seandainya kelihatan tulisan ini agak merapu tepu, ini adalah kerana medulla oblongata CikDas sel nya masih dalam transmission ke pencawang yang betul.

Henpon CikDas pulak di saat saat dramatic dengan keadaan CikDas kelesuan berfikir memberi pulak signal untuk kondem. Mengapa???!  Sekarang item henpon yang nak kondem ni berlegar difikiran CikDas mencari solusi. Seperti, restart, reformat, baling ke dinding or beli yang baru. Isunya henpon ini bukan berkaitan dengan kegagalan membuat panggilan tetapi kehilangupayaan fungsi aplikasi untuk mengakses medan sosial. Wah, sebab tu je CikDas hangin?  Suddenly sahaja saja henpon ini mempamerkan imej comatose yakni persekitaran hitam dipermukaan skrin atau nama lainnya blank screen ( sleep mode). Selalunya segala bentuk isu dan pemasalahan harian CikDas akan dirujuk dengan PakCik Google. Melaluinya sahaja lah setiap sudut pandangan, rantingan tercapai untuk CikDas klik dan pilih mencari jawapan yang sesuai dengan jiwa tekak CikDas. Cuma hari ni, CikDas dan Pakcik Google seakan tidak berada dalam garisan selari. CikDas tidak mahu terlalu bergantung kepada PakCik Google. Sebab boleh dikatakan banyak kali juga PakCik Google mencarikan jawapan yang tak relevan dengan soalan CikDas. Lebih-lebih sekarang jiwa CikDas sedang kusut kacau bila dan CikDas tak mahu mencipta jurang atau rekahan tekanan emosi yang mula membibitkan gempa di daerah paling sunyi di hati CikDas. 

Kembali kepada nyata, selepas CikDas menarik pembaca menyelidiki secara khusus perjalanan fikiran CikDas. Tak mengapa, mungkin ada yang kekejangan seketika. Biarkan, tarik nafas dan teruskan membaca. Masih ada banyak lagi coretan beku tepu yang sedang dipecah-pecahkan bongkah untuk dikeluarkan. Seperti fridge bahgian beku yang kita cuba keluarkan frost dengan mengetuk- ngetuk, begitu juga lah demikian dengan idea CikDas sekarang ini yang sedang membeku di dalam sana tunggu di frost kan. Kadang-kadang CikDas terfikir, terlalu banyak yang CikDas nak keluarkan dari sana. Segala bentuk imej, imaginasi, kata – kata, semua CikDas nak tuliskan dalam blog nanti. Seperti kepala air terjun, namun sebongkah untuk dikeluarkan kena kuis-kuis dengan banyak penyedal. Selalunya ada sahaja kerikil yang membuatnya tersangkut. Mungkin terlalu banyak semut yang CikDas telan.

Jujur sekali semasa di alam remaja dulu. Apa yang bermain difikiran CikDas mudah sahaja diabadikan dalam bentuk tulisan untuk CikDas tatapkan di hari muka. Kini, kemahiran dan keupayaan itu seakan diputuskan. Tetapi mengapa? Acapkali CikDas berfikir sendiri, kenapa CikDas tak boleh seperti dulu? Apa yang menyebabkan CikDas berubah? Adakah ini sejenis kebaikan atau semakin menunjukkan keburukan?

Hati CikDas pun rasanya tidak semurni dulu. CikDas rasa CikDas semakin berubah. Tetapi CikDas tetap biarkan sepeti katak yang direbus dalam periuk. CikDas tak mahu lompat tapi membiarkan sahaja diri dalam air yang semakin panas itu. Membiarkan situasi walaupun sudah genting masih tak cuba selamatkan diri. Eh, Ego kah CikDas ni? 

Melodrama of my heart

This time I will write my entry with melodrama mode. Actually for this couples of weeks are not a good week for me. I’m in trouble as my housemate and her younger sister was accusing me for stealing the purse, I mean her younger sister’s purse.  I don’t know how to begin this story. But firstly it’s happened with the hazelnut.

Let’s say I named her as Lily. Lily is Rose’s sister (my housemate) who always coming to our house and stay there when Rose was out for job’s travels. She’s a student who still pursuing for her Master. Instead of Rose & me, we have another housemate who named, Daisy. Daisy is a quiet person. She always spends most of her time in her room. I don't have a problem with that.

One day Lily, informed that her hazelnut (the left over from her previous baking) was gone missing. I said I didn’t take it plus as far as I remember even-though I also love baking or cooking I don’t take people’s belonging unless if I ask for permission. Plus, this incident was happened about 3 months ago, of course not many people can have this sharp of memory. Perhaps possibly maybe I’ve accidentally move the hazelnut to other container, but that part I don’t admit because like I’ve said it’s perhaps possibly or maybe. If I’m certainly remembered I’ve transfer the so called “beloved” hazelnut to other container which mixed up with other nuts or dry food, I’ll definitely apologize and buy a new one for her. But in this case, I’m also not sure because I feel that I don’t. A few days later, I came to know that she lost her purse inside the house. She claimed that impossible the purse went missing as she didn’t go out from a house. I asked her to be sure whether she might be misplaced. But she confirmed that she put the purse as at the usual place which is on the table in the LIVING ROOM.

My first thought is only an idiot will leave an important thing unattended or a phrase in a Malay, “biarkan bersepah and bila dah hilang menyusahkan orang”. At first place you should know, even in your own house without anybody there you cannot simply leave your things in a place where people can take it easily especially a thing like a purse / wallet. I thought this issue will settled however it’s getting worst because she referring to someone who is a shaman (bomoh of her hometown). The “so called a great shaman” who can predict this supernatural thingy. And guess what she said,”Really awesome”. The culprit is inside the house, and indirectly pointed to me. Together with the Hazelnut incident & missing purse, I was being accused for stealing. Hello??! & Excuse me!! I’m also DO NOT KNOW how your purse look like, in the end I’m the one who’s be the culprit? Why the reason not accused the other housemate – Daisy?, because she’s not taking it as she always being quiet. Ok, fair enough. She’s quiet and I’m also not doubting her. This is because none of us are the thief. Do you know why? All this while, before Lily came to our house, none of these stupid things happened. We left our important things in our own room, like purse, handbag with door open because of what? We trust each other. This is because the people’s who staying in this house are not a BAD PERSON including me, Daisy and Rose.

Last time Rose, her sister entrusted me to keep the house owner’s money.  She said she can’t trust herself but she knows I can keep the money. Do you have any idea how much is it? RM1000!!. Inside the purse she claimed got RM300 or RM200. See the different??! RM1000 vs RM200.The RM1000 was safe with me for more than a month? Do you think a regular thief behavior will not touch the money? Plus, I just withdrawn my cash from ASB almost RM1500, what’s on earth I want to take the money inside the purse??? Please la, next time if want to accused people, come out with solid or proof evident, like CCTV, photo snap, video  etc. Do not just come with this supernatural thingy. It’s not healthy. You pray and ask with Allah. Don’t accused people like this.  It’s really hurtful.

And now making it worst, Rose together joined the battle with her sister and attacked me with harsh word in her FB. Saying this and that, all are very extreme and insulting words. Do you know how it’s upset my feeling? Let me tell you something, if I’m a thief:

1)   This “thief” wouldn’t cook for extra home cook for the rest of the housemates even though the housemates don’t do the same. If I’m a thief why should I care about you??

2)   This “thief” wouldn’t allow you to use for almost of her belongings in the house. The oven that Lily use to bake her hazelnut brownies & cake are belong to this “thief”.

3)   The water filter that you’ve drank are belong to this “thief”.

4)   This “thief” wouldn’t throw your rubbish together with her own rubbish if they forgot to throw. The “thief” should be selfish right? Why she want to be kind?

5)   The dining table that most being put with your things / foods / 3 in 1 are belong to this “thief”. Even this "thief" couldn't put her own things. 

6)   This “thief” wouldn’t slow down the water flow inside her bathroom while taking shower if the other’s housemate is also using the other bathroom, considering that the low water pressure.Again, a thief should be self-centered. Do you know that? Of course, you don't.

7) This "thief" will use your food supply in the fridge since that you already used up all the space in the freezer to the extend this "thief" can't put her own stuff. But still your foods remains untouched. Do you know that? Of course, you don't.

So, currently don’t be mad if:

1.      I pretend not to see you in the house. Because seeing and to forgive is really hard for now.
2.      I  show my emotionless face. Because I don’t want to hate you.
3.      I  don’t reply your insulting words in FB not because I’m feel guilty or scared, but I feels it’s pointless to explain for the people who’s got the blind heart. If you want to win, you take it. If you want the throphy, you have it.
4.     I want to move my life with the people who really know who I am. If you failed to feel my trueself all this while, it’s such a lost for you. Sorry, nobody can help it.

How to survive in the office politic?

Sounds a heavy headline, but for those in working environment whether you like it or not, have to admit or not, the office politic is almost everywhere. Hit like button if you agreed. By the way, where’s my LIKE button? ^_^

Well well, my beloved readers who are with enthusiasm reading my blog (I wonder if this is the right word). Thank you for your support. I will look forward to write my blog with a language that everybody can understand. Sorry if before this you have to Google Translate my blog (I mean for those foreign reader who don’t understand Malay Language plus I’m using short form for Malay which hardly for Google to translate. I’m apology for that). Moving forward I will try to write in English and pardon me if sometimes my English is not that good. ^_^

Now back to the topic. Let’s talk how I survive in my office politic, based on my true story. 

#1: Live at peace with others

-              Indeed. The basic rule we have to follow. We come to the office not to find an enemy. We want to earn money for our livings and that’s it. The way I make peace with others is, I don’t make them too close to me. If too close, they will know our secrets, our weaknesses. If they know our weaknesses, then that’s the time the trouble will come.  As you know, bad things always spread quickly. Live peace with others and at the same time do not let your guts down. In contrary, you wouldn’t get people to remember your birthday and celebrate it in your office. Is it a matter for you? But for me it doesn’t matter for people not remembering my birthday or not. ^_^

#2: Be helpful

-              The word “helpful” might be taken advantage in the office politic. You know, sometimes being “helpful” can harm you in the office.  From certain people‘s perpective, if you help other people doing their job, they might think “She/He is so free. Don’t have own work that’s why can help others.” Jealousy and envy will rose. You want to help others but in the end you’re get mess. See? So, what you can do is, you still can offer your help but not too immediate. You can say that you still got few things to finish. Request some time before you offer your help.  This is what I always did in my office eventhough I’m not that fukcing busy.

A: Can you help me on this?

Me: Is it urgent?

A: Not really, but still need to finish by today

Me: Then, can I help you after I've done this? Give me another half an hour before I help you yaa?

A: Owh, you busy eh?

Me: Yerpp, but still can help you a bit. But not for long since I have to continue my work after that.

A: Thank you ya.

Me: Ur welcome.

#3: Stay out of those talk-down-the-boss sessions

-              You don’t like your boss and you start complaining about him/her. Be careful with the person you talk with. He/She might be a spy or tell your boss about your complaint. If he / she find out your complaint, you are definitely a deathmeat. The best person to talk complaint about your boss is the person who never attached with your current organization.  I keep few of my non-office related friends just in case I want to talk bad about my boss. Well, actually my boss is not that bad. So, I don’t have any major issue with him. Only a certain mild issue I feel that he’s being modestly unfair to me sometimes. Other than that, I’m okay with him. I’m still can tolerate his qualities towards me. ^_^

#4: Be a straight arrow

-              Be a straight arrow means you don’t getting involved of any office politic. For example, like my previous entry Foxy Versus Halitosis. You do not sides any squad. Just being neutral and talk to both of them. If they want you to be their ally, be a straight arrow. Like I always said to them. “I don’t want to be in the middle of your both arguments. It’s not healthy for me because I have to entertain both of you.” And that’s the beginning of the bitch-talking each other behind. What I have to do is to listen quietly. Haishhh. . But in the end others will respect you, even if they don't always agree with you. More important, you have a lower chance of being a victim of politics.

#5: Give time and understand the psyche of your colleagues and seniors

-              It is important to be aware of people you are working with. Don’t brainlessly express your thought without understand the whole situations. You have to be careful, tactful and above all you have to be a good listener. Like mine, I always being their good listener. Everyone wants to be heard. If you can just pay attention to people, within a short span of time you will build up their self-reliance in you. When they’re confidence, you can grow their trust. If you understand the people then it is easier to pact with them. Seriously, it’s work out on me currently.

So far, these are some of my tips that I can share with all of you. I hope it may help you in dealing your office politic. Still our life is full with challenges. This is also is part of our life obstacles. So, don’t think too stressly. Every problem has its own solution. It’s just only the matter of times.

Foxy Versus Halitosis

I have a story about 2 managers. In this story I will name them as Foxy and Halitosis. Foxy as far as I know is considering a man with hidden DarkVader. Only certain people will get to see that “dark side”.This is because he’s hiding very well with his gentleman appearance.  Wahahah, so cunning isn’t? People with this trait;

I have to extremely, tremendously, definitely, absolutely, certainly, enormously be careful and tactful. If not I’ll be trapped in the shitty situation. Huarghhh.

 The Halitosis manager is on the other part, I can say most or majority people who work in this organization feels dislike with him. But that also contribute to his weird personality. He is the person with blurred conversation always made people feel uncomfortable. I presume he got a Hashimoto Brain’s disease as the symptoms most likely close to that.

I am as the middle person for these managers. I listen to both naggings and bitching (should I feel bigheaded?).  How I’m supposed to do? To take which side one of them really incommodious? Occasionally I feel exhausting on how to put my face’s reaction. Should I just showing motionless expression?

Sometime I feel like I’m acting like an adjudicator. I listen to both stories. Both sides have good points as well. Foxy said Halitosis until now doesn’t achieve any target for his sales. Go here, go there, coming back to this office and end up nothing.  Yerp, I see that result and undeniable it’s true.

Halitosis on the other hand told me, that Foxy got a stinky heart that he wants to control everything. He being assigned to sell an expensive property values which is understandable we cannot get immediate buyer. I also agreed with that as well.

But honestly, openly, directly, frankly, essentially, actually,

I’m much more comfortable with Foxy rather than Halitasis. I don’t quite sure why but I can list down few of positive traits of him. And tell me back do you agree or not.

1.       Foxy is an optimist person. Every problem he tackles as an opportunity. While Halitosis always look at as a problem.

2.       Foxy is an organized person. Everything he does always in structure, keeping the latest update, always tidy. Not opening any rooms for management to question his doings. While Halitosis always come with excuse here and there. Not alert with changes, always asking the same question, not keeping the update and always do opening for him to be attacked. For example, caught snoring while having an assembly with the bosses. Isn’t too much?

3.       Foxy will not asking for other help if he can do it himself. Halitosis always request other people to do his favor even he can do it himself.

4.       Foxy use a gentleman’s tone when talking to a person if requesting a favor while Halitosis use his giant hoarse tone event just to ask for a small favor. FYI, I’m not deaf. So, literally he can lower down his voice. 

Versus

 Now, tell me. Which one is more convenient??? ^_^

My recently thought about wedding.

Wedding is the happiest thing for most people on Earth. I suppose 100% so.  Its rare to find people which are not happy about their wedding unless they’re been force marrying somebody they dislike.

But probably, basically, technically, honestly, generally, seriously and actually

Planning a wedding for myself is the thing I hate the most.

Why?

Frankly I don’t have the convincing answer either.

I don’t really discern what I want about my wedding especially what to wear, what doorgift to prepare, guest to invite, canopy & catering, etc. Everyday Google searching until my head got giddy, wind up I’m still not getting any results. A sound pathetic but it’s true.

I kinda have this traits which I presume, identify, recognize, and distinguish me as self-defeating or masochistic.

People said, “This is your wedding. You’re the decision maker. Don’t bother other people might say. Just go with your own wind and flow”. Haishhh, my head began to fissure every moment I think about it.

But my masochistic said, “Well, you have to consider other’s opinion as well. The wedding is not only about you. It’s also involving people around you. The people are also celebrating your wedding together with you.  Agree with their opinions. That might sound not so bad.” Suddenly this thought pop up in my head.

Woahh, it’s so damn aggravating. Why just I can’t be honestly?

Apparently, I also can’t be sincere. Feel wanna whack my face. Wake up, young lady!

Is this we called pre-wedding jitter? I did not enjoy wedding planning, for the most part. Perhaps due to small financial budget for wedding preparation, I have to save cost as possible as I can. I cut corners wherever possible, saved money at every opportunity. But happen to be slowly it’s beyond the control. Uhuk uhuk.. T_T. Feeling helpless. Somebody please help me to calm.

I think that’s the beginning of my pre wedding anxiety. I hope it will be ended soon. Really really hope.

Or else I might rip my outfit and turn to be the green beast.. Woargghhhhh!!  ( Ms. Hulk). T_T

I suppose my brain currently working like that lorh.. 

The feeling that I'm counter right now..